Just because one person rejects you doesn’t mean you need to reject yourself.
Spending Labor Day alone in a coffee shop,
Im so excited!
There are so many things Im looking forward to after this:
But then as a dark storm pass by,
keep growing bigger and bigger.
Seeing rain poured over the place and lightning strikes above me,
but keep telling myself I need to stay strong so that I can survive.
And He tell me to look up.
It bright and colorful.
because of Him,
I had diarrhea since Wednesday
and trust me, it dint feel good.
I had trips to the bathroom early in the morning without having any good sleep and less appetite.
I try to rest more and drink apple cider to cure my diarrhea.
But till now, nothing had changed.
Right now while posting this,
I feel Im going to vomit any minute now -.-
I mostly will tell my parent to go to a doctor tomorrow for a check up if this still continues.
Hope everything will be fine by then.
Recently,
I was not myself lately.
I do not know why but what I did,
what I act is totally different from what I usually do.
I knew what I did was wrong and I felt sad,
dissapointed because of my selfishness of keep thinking more on me than God.
I should not let these things control over me and change me from who I really am.
Instead,
I only want God to be the one controling my life!
So from now on,
I throw all my unwanted luggage from the past and renew my heart, renew my soul and renew my life to God.
Because You are the only one I needed most in my life and nothing else.