My Portion

You may not consider yourself

But you may very well be

A leader...

a winner...

For all the world to see...

In the eyes of others

You are a martyr

You have received recognition

And you have worked harder...

But why ?

Why all the praise?

I have done nothing but kept my word....

To a dear friend who needed me

In every incidence that occurred...

But friend!

I tell you,

you are a hero

You helped me see the light...

When I had no eyes..

You saved me...

and you were my sight =D -END-

Time is of the essence when you’re manic..

u MUST GET THINGS DONE!

anything, everything,

n u must DO IT IN TIME..

the White Rabbit dashing...

about looking at his pocket watch n say

"I’m late! I’m late! "

The world won’t stop for me

n I have to catch it...

b4 it goes flying by n I will

MISS MY CHANCE to b INCREDIBLE

There is a deadline on incredibility

n the clock is ticking away....

"You can't stay
in your corner of the forest
waiting for people
to come to you.
You have to go to them sometimes."

~ Winnie the Pooh

stars...i wonder...wats it feels like

b one of them...

mayb i watch 2 much

the princess n the frog movie...eee ;p

but it giv me a flashback...

when im holiday at Mukah...


since...there is not like a city...

so sum place hav no lampost...

it was pitch black...i cant even c myself...

oso we r in d middle of d forest...ahhhh!!!


my uncle suddenly tell all of us...

"whoa...look up..."

frm d car window...

there's onli 2 words in my mind rite nw

NO WAY!!!!

izzit a dream...or jus

many glowing objects...sparkle

above the dark sky...make it

alive as ever...ahhhh


it was d most stars i saw in my whole life...

i jus wish i can snap a picture of it...

so dat i can proove 2 all of u...

how beautiful God's creation is...

haiz...stupid handphone....

d camera so blurry...sigh....

One day as I was walking....
On the straight and narrow highway
I looked
n not too far ahead
I saw a tempting byway
I saw that games were being played


Looked like a county fair
So I went in to join them
And they offered me a chair
I watched awhile
and then began....
to walk upon the byway
It seemed a place quite similar...o.o

To the narrow highway
I saw the birds
the shrubs and trees...
And smelled a smell
so sweet ;D

But as I walked....
I failed to see.....
The net beneath my feet
I heard a crackling sound
and
I Was caught so suddenly...
That I could not begin to guess
What happened then to me???

I struggled from inside the net
And suddenly the scene...
was changed...
and
began to hear a groaning
and some screams...

The birds became dark....
ghastly things...
The trees were
black.... bent
The smell became
a dreadful stench
The path had a sharp descent
I cried out in that dreadful place

Then heard the Master say
In loving tones...
so sweet....so low

"Did you leave the narrow way?"
"Oh Lord," I cried
"I'm like a bird
Caught in this awful net.
Please help me...
Lord, to free myself.''

The Master said,
"Don't fret."
I'll give you strength
my little one =D
To break the fowler's snare.
"I struggled hard, and soon was free
In answer to my prayer.

Then....
when my wandering soul escaped
from that old fiend's device
The Master said,

"That snare can't hold
A Bird of Paradise."

Life goes on and so do i....

Trying to understand im 16...

As i grew

the more i realized

life gets harder...

Knowing life

will keep on going....

Learning...

what life is really made of

Finding out

what i want to be...

Knowing i have ....

more choices i have to make

Learning giving up ...

is not the right thing

Knowing i have

more resposibilites....

Learning its all

up to me for my future

Knowing theres more

i wil learn....

after i heard wat
my dad told me jus nw...
it cant b...it cant b true...
why...why so sudden !!!!

my face suddenly changed
as my smile
do not exist animore...
tried 2 resist the pain..
in my heart...
the tears...
in my eyes...

at 1st i thought
its jus a joke...
but my dad never jokes..
in serious times....

if u still there...
i wish i can hug u...
kiss u...with all my heart..
n u will do the same thing
as me in return...
with a warm smile on ur face..

if u still there...
mayb u can play the harmonica
n i will sing
some of our fav songs...
n sing 2gether..as we used 2..
n we wil roared with laugher
when we made silly mistakes..

u hav taught me alot of things
since childhood n i still
remembered vividly in my mind..

if u still there...
i wish i could hear ur voice..
ur sweet voice...when u
calling me...
or looking at me
with ur lovely hazel eyes
althought u still insist
wearing ur old glases
..but i luv it jus u being dis way...

if u still there...
since ur bdae is comin..
i can still made it...made it
2 made my last phone call...
sing n wish u a
happy bdae n i luv
when u say
"thank u kai tian"

reali...if u still there....
i reali...reali
wanted 2 say....
thank u 4 always b my gm
4 all these years...
im grateful 2 hav sum1 like u...
i wil always remember u...
deep..deep down
in my heart....sniff...

althought still depressed.. but
happy cause
u no nid 2 suffer animor pain...
i reali dunwan 2 c u suffer...
like dis...it makes me feel hurt
jus wanted 2 tell u dat
God wil always luv u..
protect u...
n im sure dat He wil
lead u 2 a better,safer place..
i wil pray...hope u wil b hapi there...

lastly...i wanted 2 say dat...
..........................................
i luv u