My Portion

shezzz....remind me next time
don do new thing when do sumthing
althought it's a good thing....-_0

everything will b perfect
if i dint hav DIS....sigh

in the cold....silence room
only few shadows i saw
n sum ppl
bsides me....

sum looked relax...
still can running around
like lil monkeys haha XD
sum looked calm bt
actuali they are scared
freakin scared...X.X

while buzy fighting with
those emotions....
the aunty...a Malay
always comfort me
for the past 6 years...
she so cool....yup xp
excellet at Hokkien...oooohh...ahhhh
makes a person feel jelous x.x
suudenly called me...in a cool mood
" Its time,gurl"

Yikes!!! ahhh....
doomsday comin...
heart pounding with fear
as i w8 outside the room...
panicked...till rush 2 the toilet..
sry hehe....nervous wat

then flew back....saw a lady..
with a sweet accent calling me...
"Come in my Dear"
as i greet her with a smile....
when i sit properly...
wat i heard is START...
omg...nw it feels like
between life n death....
my mind were blank....
hands shivering...
duno bcause it is cold or fear....

dint noe wat the HECK im doing
jus doing prefectly at home...
bt dis is........jus trying my best
2 do wat should b done...
saw the reflextion of the lady
while do it makes me
feel worst....haiz

these few minutes feels
like forever....bt glad
FINALLY its over.....XD
bt the nightmare wil return...
the world gona end soon......

These pic taken frm China

Lets take a look shall we......



ok........move on

Dat also can happen -_-

Haiz.....

ewww......disgusting man......-_-

Whoa....nice name 4 women's toilet

sweet......ehem sorry

This is insane....i wil sue this person

for do such a weird law......

Creepy...................

Dat toilet creator must be stupid enuf 2

put dis....sigh

This happens when c 2 much

Transformer.....

ugh......don care

Ahaha.....i luv this most XD

Never thought even Rocks

hav ''hard times'' =.= cool....now every1 can use haha XD

OH, THESE ARE TOTALLY HILARIOUS!! I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING!!!!!!

All Gurls must c this!!!

Beware n always protect urself

or else u will ended like

this ......

Better a dry crust with peace n quiet

than a house full of feasting with strife.....

i applied my heart to what I observed

and learn a lesson what I saw......

reali thanks alot ever1
4 always support me
when im down these days....

ok enuf no more sad stuff...
wats done is done....
don care wat ppl say me..
think of me.....
i will stay strong...nothin can stop me
jus 4giv n 4get XD yay

buh bye bad MERORIES.....
i repeat bad MERORIES DELETE....sigh

there is a song, a song
very important
meaningful 2 me
i wana share with all of u

here's the lyric:

God will make a way

Where there seems 2 be no way

He works His way we cannot see

He will make a way for me

He will be my guide

Hold me close Him 2 his side

With love n strength

for each new day

He will make a way....

He will make a way

nice rite XD k dats all
4 2dae

i jus delete the post dat
i jus do jus nw....
cause i felt dat
its wrong 2 say things like dat....
so wrong.............so teribble

especiali i saw one of my frens blog....
its true.....everything they say its true.......
im sori....sincerly sori.....

but still.....u guys still duno my situation.....
veri complicated.......

even the keyboard wet....2 times
one is at afernoon
the feakin angry....frustrated jerk type dis
n one is nw
the confused.....hurt.....helpless...jerk type dis....

dats wat i tell u.....
my sadness makes things worse...
hurts many frens......i reali dunwan dat happen...

i never thought these few unhappy days.....
seriously.......................
happens so many things...unexpected
duno wat should i do nw.....

" U r a Failure Kai Tian!!!!''
as dat person keeps shouting
in front of me
my head jus keep telling....
why dis have 2 happen 2 me....why....why.... WHY!!!!

my whole body keeps shaking.....
tears keep rolling down frm my cheek....continuosly
as i try 2 control myself...
dat person was rite....
im a failure!!!
fail at everything.....
even if i try ....nothing will happen...
why....why bad things keeps happening 2 me....
i jus hav a BAD mood n nw DIS...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2dae i should b happy......
exam finish n its my pal's bdae...
i dont get it....WHY!!!

dat person think im strong....but actuali
im weak....so weak...
i easily get hurt.....easily get sad....
easily get worried....
i jus wish sum1 can help me....but who
nobody....nobody will understands me....
everthing i hav 2 face on my own....
i cant depend on anyone....

my parent these days work day n nite
so i dint c them much.....
my bro drive me home 2dae....
bside him is a fren....
who duno Chinese at all....well mayb a lil
i scare 2 let them noe im crying
i quickly wipe my face b4 entering the car
i was in a vey bad mood.....
bt my bro keep teasing me....dats not funny at all

b4 we reach 2 his fren's hse....
my bro u noe la....wana show offf his "drift"
which is so damn scary....
when he do the ''drift''
me n his fren nearly fell....wat the heck he's doing
but suddenly his fren scold him [jus joking] in a funny way
'' ni qu shi la, shi ben dan,da ni ar"
translation: u go die la, stupid, beat u ar

his chinese so damn funny
i laugh out loud....i never laugh so much in my life^^
its the same thing dat i scold my bro
last week.....dat guy....haiz
im glad he is my bro's fren
reali thx a lot ....
if it wasnt 4 u ....i will still hide in the darkness...
crying.........thx 2 him
im getting more confident....no more tears 4 me
i will stay strong,fearless.....n tell evey1 hu read dis
IM NOT A FAILURE XD

im different... from the rest of u

dat is why...u should'nt get 2 close

Dont bother coming any closer

to the darkness u no nid 2 c

in dat head of ur's

dat dosent bother 2 think about anything...

i dont want...2 show u.....................

Geez.....

jus kept askin myself the same thing....

why so blurr these days.....

its feels like the whole world topse-turvy -_-

spinning in my head....like "mabuk" @_@

THIS only happens...

these few days....

honestly(well mayb sumtimes)

duno why....

my brain suddenly like malfunction

even can daydream or sleeping

while talkin 2 my family n frenz....-geng-

and then its like

my mouth spill all nonsense n stufff....haiz X.X

mayb i slept 2 late b4 exam....OR

mayb because of the Nescafe i drank

haha wooohooo yea....luv it xp

makes me nuts....hope don get addicted 0.0

i wil pray 4 dat....

Yay!!! 2moro last day of exam...

hope 4 the best 4 everyone ^^!!!!!

hope don get blurred....sigh

hope 4 the bio test.....ahhh help me T-T

On a Saturday morning,
Heard my sister's calling,
Woke up I could sense
Raindrop falling.


Lying on bed,
Eyes are red,
It makes me feel like
Im dead....


There's no air for me
to let me breathe,
Hope I'll be free
From the sickness within me.


For life always busy,
My mind felt dizzy,
Dizzy from those stress
which are not easy.


Eveytime it arrive,
Hard to survive,
But the strenght of strive
makes me alive......

We might be best friends one year,


pretty good friends the next year,


don't talk that often the next year,


and don't want to talk at all the year after that.........



So, I just wanted to say,


even IF someday


i'll never talk to you again in my life,


or even wil seperated in different ways


but




you are a friend and you have made a difference in my life,


I look up to you and respect you most the time :D



Ps: i wana let every1 noe dat


always treasure ur friendship,its true


Remember, everyone needs a friend...


&


u'll never noe


somebody out there cares about you and always will...


I like you


because of who you are to me...A true friend


just remember


this.......thank you

those high heels r killin me.....
no choice...im trying new things hehe
jus came back frm church.....
i like 2 listen wat Wei Jin n Daniel's gospel....
leadership stuff...ahaha....bad at it.....
no courage 2 stand infront a sea of ppl.....
even if i try....i'll jus end up in hospital....
cause gt stage fright till faint
haha XD jus kidin...bt stil i don think i can do it...

but wat Daniel said reali inspires me......
especiali at Ephsians 5:8
"For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord"
when i heard dis verse, it makes me feel like hope ^^

2 tired.....

i jus hope 2 4get those stress.....

so put all my energy during karate practise....

cause dis reali helps me alot....

always focuscing n

jus kicking...punching....shouting till u happy.....

4get those unhappy thoughts.....

try 2 be myself as soon as possible....