stars...i wonder...wats it feels like
b one of them...
mayb i watch 2 much
the princess n the frog movie...eee ;p
but it giv me a flashback...
when im holiday at Mukah...
since...there is not like a city...
so sum place hav no lampost...
it was pitch black...i cant even c myself...
oso we r in d middle of d forest...ahhhh!!!
my uncle suddenly tell all of us...
"whoa...look up..."
frm d car window...
there's onli 2 words in my mind rite nw
NO WAY!!!!
izzit a dream...or jus
many glowing objects...sparkle
above the dark sky...make it
alive as ever...ahhhh
it was d most stars i saw in my whole life...
i jus wish i can snap a picture of it...
so dat i can proove 2 all of u...
how beautiful God's creation is...
haiz...stupid handphone....
d camera so blurry...sigh....
One day as I was walking....
On the straight and narrow highway
I looked
n not too far ahead
I saw a tempting byway
I saw that games were being played
Looked like a county fair
So I went in to join them
And they offered me a chair
I watched awhile
and then began....
to walk upon the byway
It seemed a place quite similar...o.o
To the narrow highway
I saw the birds
the shrubs and trees...
And smelled a smell
so sweet ;D
But as I walked....
I failed to see.....
The net beneath my feet
I heard a crackling sound
and
I Was caught so suddenly...
That I could not begin to guess
What happened then to me???
I struggled from inside the net
And suddenly the scene...
was changed...
and
began to hear a groaning
and some screams...
The birds became dark....
ghastly things...
The trees were
black.... bent
The smell became
a dreadful stench
The path had a sharp descent
I cried out in that dreadful place
Then heard the Master say
In loving tones...
so sweet....so low
"Did you leave the narrow way?"
"Oh Lord," I cried
"I'm like a bird
Caught in this awful net.
Please help me...
Lord, to free myself.''
The Master said,
"Don't fret."
I'll give you strength
my little one =D
To break the fowler's snare.
"I struggled hard, and soon was free
In answer to my prayer.
Then....
when my wandering soul escaped
from that old fiend's device
The Master said,
"That snare can't hold
A Bird of Paradise."
Life goes on and so do i....
Trying to understand im 16...
As i grew
the more i realized
life gets harder...
Knowing life
will keep on going....
Learning...
what life is really made of
Finding out
what i want to be...
Knowing i have ....
more choices i have to make
Learning giving up ...
is not the right thing
Knowing i have
more resposibilites....
Learning its all
up to me for my future
Knowing theres more
i wil learn....
after i heard wat
my dad told me jus nw...
it cant b...it cant b true...
why...why so sudden !!!!
my face suddenly changed
as my smile
do not exist animore...
tried 2 resist the pain..
in my heart...
the tears...
in my eyes...
at 1st i thought
its jus a joke...
but my dad never jokes..
in serious times....
if u still there...
i wish i can hug u...
kiss u...with all my heart..
n u will do the same thing
as me in return...
with a warm smile on ur face..
if u still there...
mayb u can play the harmonica
n i will sing
some of our fav songs...
n sing 2gether..as we used 2..
n we wil roared with laugher
when we made silly mistakes..
u hav taught me alot of things
since childhood n i still
remembered vividly in my mind..
if u still there...
i wish i could hear ur voice..
ur sweet voice...when u
calling me...
or looking at me
with ur lovely hazel eyes
althought u still insist
wearing ur old glases
..but i luv it jus u being dis way...
if u still there...
since ur bdae is comin..
i can still made it...made it
2 made my last phone call...
sing n wish u a
happy bdae n i luv
when u say
"thank u kai tian"
reali...if u still there....
i reali...reali
wanted 2 say....
thank u 4 always b my gm
4 all these years...
im grateful 2 hav sum1 like u...
i wil always remember u...
deep..deep down
in my heart....sniff...
althought still depressed.. but
happy cause
u no nid 2 suffer animor pain...
i reali dunwan 2 c u suffer...
like dis...it makes me feel hurt
jus wanted 2 tell u dat
God wil always luv u..
protect u...
n im sure dat He wil
lead u 2 a better,safer place..
i wil pray...hope u wil b hapi there...
lastly...i wanted 2 say dat...
..........................................
i luv u
I realised dat
dont judge a book by its cover
althought he is not 100% perfect but really...
he have sumthing
special or hidden talent
which nt many people can see
for the first time, i stared at u for so long
wondering why i dint know the real you.
You amazed me n hope you will always
remain the same -END-
to all my frens
(especially 4 my special 1)
evry1 must know that
the most difficult task
as a friend
is to offer understanding
when we don't understand.
(well...dis people rite nw
hav dis problems above=_=)
When we honestly
ask ourselves which
person in our lives
mean the most to us....
we often find that
it is those who
instead of giving advice
solutions
or cures
have chosen
rather
to share our pain and
touch our wounds
with a warm and
tender hand xp
The friend
who can be silent
in a moment of despair
or confusion....
who can stay
in an hour of grief
and bereavement
who can tolerate not knowing,
not curing,
not healing and face
is a friend who cares^^
n this person appreciates it
to any1 hu i hav hurt them...
jus 2 say dat
im sry -END-
actuali i reali can
fullfill it
but......
everytime i saw u.....
jus gettin scared...
scared i'll messed up the whole thing
scared i loose dat promise
i made.....
even im reali am trying
u will still unsatified....:(
argh....AND U
the IMMItation of ME
what the heck r u doing....
huever u r.....stop it....
I MEAN IT.....
its nt fuuny at all >:-(
yea....school holiday....boring x.x
hate raining...cant go out...
so...so cold but sleeps like a baby ahh....xp
well...its great dat
finali can use computer
n say sumthin stupid again....hehe
as usual....but
there's sumthin i wana say
maybe........
we think dat our lives....
revolve around great moments.....
however....
great moments often catch us
unware......
beautifully wrapped
in tiny packages...
people may not remember
exactly wat u did....
OR wat u say hehe ;p
but they will
always
remember
how u make them feel.....
jus came back frm restaurant
after celebrate....n i gt
a surprise!!!XP
rite down there....
its a centipede....huge centipede
....grosss rite@@@
its gona attack us....bt hav no fear
lil bro is here#########
2 the rescue hehehe ;3
KAISONG vs CENTIPEDE
FIGHT!!!!!
WHACK!!!WHACK!!!WHACK!!!
K.O my bro win yay!!! XD
rest in peace my fren....X.X
calculate with my ruler....its 13.3cm..
So whether you're a Leo, Virgo, or a weirdo.....,
tellin the whole world
out there hav a
H*A*P*P*Y B*I*R*T*H*D*A*Y……! ! !
hehe xp
oh...my precious...
its been few years...
we hav nt meet.....
mis u so much -_-
jus giv me a few days 2 recover...
make sure u wil
not taken from
my cheeky...
naughthylil bro again...
u r gonna
B MINE keke =p
cant sleep the whole night
as the head of mine
feels like been stabbed
by sum1....filled with
pain
never felt so terrible...
in my life....
hope nothing serious happens...
happy 2 be in the team....
excited ;)
its been a long time never
had like this...but
facing 1 of the strongest opponent
is 1 thing i cant imagined..
RING DING DING!!!
GO......
well...here goes nothin....
in the end:
results:Defeated T-T
breathless n tired
mayB its jus nt my
lucky day....haiz =.=
but wont giv up dat easily
jus nid 2 train mor
n hope will b better next time
oso hav learn sumthin frm them
so wont repeat the same mistakes
again =>
Denise ROCKS!!!....whoohoo XD
so cool when she kicking ppl's butts
althought gt lots of fouls haha
sum opponents shocked when
they heard they wil fight with her 0.O
hehe....pity them
she had done her best
n haapy 4 her =3
PS: Congrats Denise xp
Congrats all ppl who won =D
there r few things i wont 4get
in the Cpt food n fun fest:
1.Not every business are boring
as u think
it sumtimes fun n interesting XD
c ppl frm different ages
havin fun, smilling....determined
2 win the prize...i luv it
oso learn not 2 look down
on lil children......=3= ahem
i thought we as teen
should win mor but do u noe
these lil children more pro leh xp
they onli spend RM2
oso can get the red T-shirt bear...
simply thorw oso can win...
my gudness..me n Haslin
stare at them...like huh!!!! 0.O
1 word: WOW!!!!
mayb its their lucky day i guess
haiz....=.=
the twins were awesome
their milkshake are the best man!!!
brought 2 strawberry...
also gt time 2 help them n it was fun XD
2. regret 4 doing this so called THING..
so regret wear high heels
n the disgusting make-ups...yuck T-T
(sry...but not all gurls like it)
even worse...so so regret...
wear the cheongsam...PINK!!!
yuck...double yuck...=.=
wont 4get n wont regret
walked out...mani ppl
voices i heard
feels kinda creepy...bt when i saw
MOM,DAD,my frenz giv me support..
omg...heard lots n lots of scream...
(especiali sum person..hmm..
duno hu scream the loudest ar..
u noe hu la hehe xp)
thx every1....i wont 4get this^^
i also gt the time 2 c CPT's
performance...all are gd
but luv the most is the
Indian dance which perfomed
Rachel, Komala n the others..
WOW!!!they r so damn cool
enjoy so much xp
luv the indian music n the beat
my parent also agree dat
they also like it the most..Hooray XD
DADDY even record Auntie SAM..
eat nasi lemak...she eat
with funny espression..haha XD
3.this is the most important 1
dat is work 2gether
as a team 2 do
Gotong Royong...
after a hard work we done...
at first is kinda boring..
cause jus nid 2 pour out
the dirty...yuckie water frm
the baby pool
(which is 4 the games +.=)
then all the sudden Emmelia
splash water at us...
dats where fun begins XD
all of us hav water fights CHARGE!!!!
Andrea"s scream the loudest
when we all splash at her xp
haha XD poor Andrea
Adeline jus simply spalsh water
at us...until Sam accidentali
drink it a lil...ewww hehe
she even splash me but still
she say OPPS*....walao A...so
i splash her back hehe xp
...its a CHaos
but stil its never been so fun...
shezzz....remind me next time
don do new thing when do sumthing
althought it's a good thing....-_0
everything will b perfect
if i dint hav DIS....sigh
in the cold....silence room
only few shadows i saw
n sum ppl
bsides me....
sum looked relax...
still can running around
like lil monkeys haha XD
sum looked calm bt
actuali they are scared
freakin scared...X.X
while buzy fighting with
those emotions....
the aunty...a Malay
always comfort me
for the past 6 years...
she so cool....yup xp
excellet at Hokkien...oooohh...ahhhh
makes a person feel jelous x.x
suudenly called me...in a cool mood
" Its time,gurl"
Yikes!!! ahhh....
doomsday comin...
heart pounding with fear
as i w8 outside the room...
panicked...till rush 2 the toilet..
sry hehe....nervous wat
then flew back....saw a lady..
with a sweet accent calling me...
"Come in my Dear"
as i greet her with a smile....
when i sit properly...
wat i heard is START...
omg...nw it feels like
between life n death....
my mind were blank....
hands shivering...
duno bcause it is cold or fear....
dint noe wat the HECK im doing
jus doing prefectly at home...
bt dis is........jus trying my best
2 do wat should b done...
saw the reflextion of the lady
while do it makes me
feel worst....haiz
these few minutes feels
like forever....bt glad
FINALLY its over.....XD
bt the nightmare wil return...
the world gona end soon......
These pic taken frm China
Lets take a look shall we......
ok........move on
Dat also can happen -_-
Haiz.....
ewww......disgusting man......-_-
Whoa....nice name 4 women's toilet
This is insane....i wil sue this person
Creepy...................
Dat toilet creator must be stupid enuf 2 
This happens when c 2 much 
ugh......don care
Ahaha.....i luv this most XD
Never thought even Rocks 
cool....now every1 can use haha XD
OH, THESE ARE TOTALLY HILARIOUS!! I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING!!!!!!
All Gurls must c this!!!
Beware n always protect urself
or else u will ended like
this ......
Better a dry crust with peace n quiet
than a house full of feasting with strife.....
i applied my heart to what I observed
and learn a lesson what I saw......
reali thanks alot ever1
4 always support me
when im down these days....
ok enuf no more sad stuff...
wats done is done....
don care wat ppl say me..
think of me.....
i will stay strong...nothin can stop me
jus 4giv n 4get XD yay
buh bye bad MERORIES.....
i repeat bad MERORIES DELETE....sigh
there is a song, a song
very important
meaningful 2 me
i wana share with all of u
here's the lyric:
God will make a way
Where there seems 2 be no way
He works His way we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me close Him 2 his side
With love n strength
for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way
nice rite XD k dats all
4 2dae
i jus delete the post dat
i jus do jus nw....
cause i felt dat
its wrong 2 say things like dat....
so wrong.............so teribble
especiali i saw one of my frens blog....
its true.....everything they say its true.......
im sori....sincerly sori.....
but still.....u guys still duno my situation.....
veri complicated.......
even the keyboard wet....2 times
one is at afernoon
the feakin angry....frustrated jerk type dis
n one is nw
the confused.....hurt.....helpless...jerk type dis....
dats wat i tell u.....
my sadness makes things worse...
hurts many frens......i reali dunwan dat happen...
i never thought these few unhappy days.....
seriously.......................
happens so many things...unexpected
duno wat should i do nw.....
" U r a Failure Kai Tian!!!!''
as dat person keeps shouting
in front of me
my head jus keep telling....
why dis have 2 happen 2 me....why....why.... WHY!!!!
my whole body keeps shaking.....
tears keep rolling down frm my cheek....continuosly
as i try 2 control myself...
dat person was rite....
im a failure!!!
fail at everything.....
even if i try ....nothing will happen...
why....why bad things keeps happening 2 me....
i jus hav a BAD mood n nw DIS...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2dae i should b happy......
exam finish n its my pal's bdae...
i dont get it....WHY!!!
dat person think im strong....but actuali
im weak....so weak...
i easily get hurt.....easily get sad....
easily get worried....
i jus wish sum1 can help me....but who
nobody....nobody will understands me....
everthing i hav 2 face on my own....
i cant depend on anyone....
my parent these days work day n nite
so i dint c them much.....
my bro drive me home 2dae....
bside him is a fren....
who duno Chinese at all....well mayb a lil
i scare 2 let them noe im crying
i quickly wipe my face b4 entering the car
i was in a vey bad mood.....
bt my bro keep teasing me....dats not funny at all
b4 we reach 2 his fren's hse....
my bro u noe la....wana show offf his "drift"
which is so damn scary....
when he do the ''drift''
me n his fren nearly fell....wat the heck he's doing
but suddenly his fren scold him [jus joking] in a funny way
'' ni qu shi la, shi ben dan,da ni ar"
translation: u go die la, stupid, beat u ar
his chinese so damn funny
i laugh out loud....i never laugh so much in my life^^
its the same thing dat i scold my bro
last week.....dat guy....haiz
im glad he is my bro's fren
reali thx a lot ....
if it wasnt 4 u ....i will still hide in the darkness...
crying.........thx 2 him
im getting more confident....no more tears 4 me
i will stay strong,fearless.....n tell evey1 hu read dis
IM NOT A FAILURE XD
im different... from the rest of u
dat is why...u should'nt get 2 close
Dont bother coming any closer
to the darkness u no nid 2 c
in dat head of ur's
dat dosent bother 2 think about anything...
i dont want...2 show u.....................
Geez.....
jus kept askin myself the same thing....
why so blurr these days.....
its feels like the whole world topse-turvy -_-
spinning in my head....like "mabuk" @_@
THIS only happens...
these few days....
honestly(well mayb sumtimes)
duno why....
my brain suddenly like malfunction
even can daydream or sleeping
while talkin 2 my family n frenz....-geng-
and then its like
my mouth spill all nonsense n stufff....haiz X.X
mayb i slept 2 late b4 exam....OR
mayb because of the Nescafe i drank
haha wooohooo yea....luv it xp
makes me nuts....hope don get addicted 0.0
i wil pray 4 dat....
Yay!!! 2moro last day of exam...
hope 4 the best 4 everyone ^^!!!!!
hope don get blurred....sigh
hope 4 the bio test.....ahhh help me T-T
On a Saturday morning,
Heard my sister's calling,
Woke up I could sense
Raindrop falling.
Lying on bed,
Eyes are red,
It makes me feel like
Im dead....
There's no air for me
to let me breathe,
Hope I'll be free
From the sickness within me.
For life always busy,
My mind felt dizzy,
Dizzy from those stress
which are not easy.
Eveytime it arrive,
Hard to survive,
But the strenght of strive
makes me alive......
We might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.........
So, I just wanted to say,
even IF someday
i'll never talk to you again in my life,
or even wil seperated in different ways
but
you are a friend and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you and respect you most the time :D
Ps: i wana let every1 noe dat
always treasure ur friendship,its true
Remember, everyone needs a friend...
&
u'll never noe
somebody out there cares about you and always will...
I like you
because of who you are to me...A true friend
just remember
this.......thank you
those high heels r killin me.....
no choice...im trying new things hehe
jus came back frm church.....
i like 2 listen wat Wei Jin n Daniel's gospel....
leadership stuff...ahaha....bad at it.....
no courage 2 stand infront a sea of ppl.....
even if i try....i'll jus end up in hospital....
cause gt stage fright till faint
haha XD jus kidin...bt stil i don think i can do it...
but wat Daniel said reali inspires me......
especiali at Ephsians 5:8
"For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord"
when i heard dis verse, it makes me feel like hope ^^
2 tired.....
i jus hope 2 4get those stress.....
so put all my energy during karate practise....
cause dis reali helps me alot....
always focuscing n
jus kicking...punching....shouting till u happy.....
4get those unhappy thoughts.....
try 2 be myself as soon as possible....
ah.....im so happy 2dae....
havin fun with my pals during red team....
but it dint lasted until a ball suddenly.....
jus hit poor Adeline.....
on the HEAD!!!!
oh my gosh!!!
i noe dat hit wil reali hurt her...seriously...but she...
aiyo...she stil smiling at us....always cheerfull...AMAZING
but gd thing Adeline has a thick skull 2 hehe xp
thank goodness....
but still im so ANGRY....hate those ppl dint say sorry 2 her....argh!!!!
i jus wish i can use the ball n throw right through their HEADS!!!!
then they wil noe how pain!!!!
well hope Adeline's head will b better
so i wana share every1 this joke...
also help Adeline 4got the pain...haha :D
its called................................
Chinese Air Stewardess
This is how Chinese Stewardess speaks English in the plane.....
"Good other noon, Ladies and the German.
This is your cheap purser Wang Lui speaking.
On behalf of China Sudden Airlines,
I would like to welcome you on board our Bowling seben tee seben
from Shenzhen to Qingtao.
Members of my crew speak Chinese and other languages that you do not know.
It is a great pressure serving you to die.
Should you need any resistance during the fright,
peace do pest the call button.
I and my gals are available to make you feel comfortable.
Meanwhile, the airkwaft is going to fry.
Peace shit upright and keep you belt tightly farsened
until dinner is served at five dirty p.m.
Hope you would enjoy your fright with us.
Funk kill."
another 1
Spaghetti
For several years, a man was having an affair with an Italian woman.
One night, she confided in him that she was pregnant.
Not wanting to ruin his reputation or his marriage,
He paid her a large sum of money if
she would go to Italy to secretly have the child.
If she stayed in Italy to raise the child,
he would also provide child support until the child turned 18.
She agreed, but asked how he would know when the baby was born.
To keep it discrete, he told her to simply mail him a post card,
and write 'Spaghetti' on the back.
He would then arrange for the child support payments to begin.
One day, about 9 months later, he came home to his confused wife.
'Honey,' she said, 'you received a very strange post card today.' '
Oh, just give it to me and I'll explain it later,' he said.
The wife obeyed and watched as her husband read the card,
turned white, and fainted.
On the card was written:
'Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti.Three with meatballs, two without.'Send extra sauce.'
haha XD hope u guys enjoys dis....
thanks 2 my cousin Le Yu
now u can giv comments.....
sch begins at 7.45am,
the 1st period all of us go dewan n listen discpline teacher
tell grandma story....boring X.X
(i noe she do dis 4 our own gd but stil boring)
i try ma best to wake up 2 prevent frm her staring at me....sigh
at bio,Sam was a lil unwell....hope u wil get better Sammy^^
mostly im concentrate 4 de upcomin exam....
but stil there r some funny parts i saw in bio
Farhanah.....duno why she suddenly go in front n sing.....weird bt funny
i also saw Aysha,talkin non stop to Natalie
about gt -cicak- at prefect camp....she like cicak izit...ugh
n dat Rachel....as usual...likes to create a fun atmosphere
when ms Khoo is teaching :)
after dis Maths week....i team up with few Amigos!!!! oooooh
they r............
Adeline,Nian Zle,Eugina,Adrienne n a few Malay students
they r actuali nice....i also gt hi 2 them
WaloA....i c so mani numbers till headache....
even worse my beautiful hands bcome dirty....jus kidin
all of us work 2gether bt alas dint get any prizes...bt happy :3
Bee Hong's group gt 1st prize...yay!!!
Jessica,Jessie,Charmaine,Chia Ying n Rou Min gt 2nd....gt hilighter
3rd was ahem...haiz....its Aysha's group....
i duno why i keep laughing when the "three prefecteers"
Aysha,Natelie n Andrea quickly rush 2 take their note pads<<
i wan their prize....no fair
Adeline say im 2 stingy....hanah!!!! i noe u smart la....aiyo
well....naughty Emmelia agian touch my hair...
mayb her hand 2 itchy.....well dats her all rite^^
in P.Moral, i nothin 2 do...so i use a pen
n poke Jessica....dat Adeline....keep saying i molested her...
its a fake....jus ingore her hehe xp
n she jus likes 2 pluck my hair...
well as u noe every1 hav white hair....duh!!!
but instead she pluck my black hair...n say
"oooooh...i saw 1
oooooh...i saw another 1
Adeline...bcareful i wil do the same thing as u did muahaha im EVIL!!!
then i also say Adeline's PM project....she do lots of "pose"
in her pic...duno why she dunwan let us c....=.=
she 2 paiseh....yea rite :s
Rachel seems a lil upset at class cause of her hanphone problem
which she has the same MODEL as Adeline....whoa
Chia ying reali likes shady....actuali me 2...yea man...high 5
Mavis stil likes 2 argue with Rachel as usual....but they havin fun
when sch finish....my bro take me home...
n i notice sum gurls stare at my bro....oooooooooo
when we stop at trafic light near MCD at sunrise...
i saw sumthin surprising....Jessica n Jessie
WOW!!! i hi with them....so happy XD
my bro even ask which 1 more cuter....haha jus kidin
he jus askin 4 fun...
haiz....duno why i stil hav no mood 4 studying
n my piano EXAM is comin..........aaaaaaaaaaaaa sh!t
mus practice now....@_@
my blog is officially open...
bcause u guys always say
kai tian why u dint open blog ar....can share happiness with frenz...lazy ar
bla bla bla...sien
so now i open lo....happy...sigh
ok enuf talkin n start the main point...
here go's nothin
3...
2...
1...
GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha
actuali i wana say thx all u if u c dis blog..veri hapi XD
i actuali noe God better after the CF camp during holiday...thank Lord
i also saw mani christians hu r reali love,loyal 2 God...
n eventuali bcame frenz...veri happy ^^
...hope PFS wil organise more of dis
church was fine as usuall...
Daniel talks about sharing gospel 2 us...n i was touched
then he also gt say anyone wan share anything....
but onli few ppl brave enuf 2 talk 2 everybody...
they r ben, rebecca n sean
WOW...im proud of them cause they reali luv God, luv ppl
especiali the non christian...n they reali wana help them
risk their reputation,images.....
even shocking is sean share the word of God in front of all his classmates
=.= when i listen those words...my heart ache....why im such a coward..
im guity 4 not brave enuf 2 share gospel 2 aniyone i meet
or even talk 2 anyone im not close 2....i nearly cried........
k enuf or else i reali gona cry hehe
i reali wana thank God 4 letting me come 2 GBC....
got a great person like Daniel 4 always share with us God's words....
i even meet many frenz....it was 1 of my HAPPIEST things happen 2 me
they change MY LIFE.....
k dats 4 nw...giv me some comments k so i can improve...
dun giv me stupid 1 THX
